Over this week I learned that I value intimacy a lot and fear commitment. But is that fair? Can you ask someone for intimacy (deep conversations, sharing inner struggles and worries, etc) and ask someone to open up to you without committing to that person? hmm. Im writing this now because i want to track my thoughts over my life but also because i don’t want to bother my friends with long text and conversation when everyone is busy with their lives. I can see how this topic is boring but its just my thoughts haha
But anyways, A thought ive had recently for the past year or two is that, if heaven exists it has to be boring. Here’s my argument. First of all, we have to talk about whether or not a person gets to heaven by meeting a threshold of goodness like a minimum requirement ELO to get to or if they reach an ultimate ELO where there is no improvement from. Lets assume that a person meets a threshold of goodness, and from there, can improve in heaven. At some point, there is a non-improvable point (near God). But if one reaches a non-improvable point, then there have to be smaller steps up from the initial point to the maximal point. Say you have 10 billion years to progress from one point to the other, then each intermediate step is infinitely small and therefore boring to progress it. People value improving at things. I feel like that’s where a lot of human enjoyment exists, the self-improvement of oneself. But if each intermediate step is infinitely small, then doesn’t that mean it’s infinitely meaningless? And say its not meaningless and there is a specified number of steps and each step is hard to progress to, at some point in the 10 billion years a person will reach the final step. When the person reaches the final step and can longer improve from there, maybe they are content for what 1 year? 10 years? 100 years? What if you reach that point at 2 billion years, you’d have 8 billion more years where you just maintain your level which has to be boring
Now say its the opposite, that there is no improvement in heaven but rather when you reach heaven there is a constant state of bliss and contentment. Doesnt that strip the faculties that are most important in humans? The ability to feel different emotions, reason, and have individual thoughts? If humans reach a state of bliss in heaven deprived of improvement, its analogous to a person on drugs deprived of their senses. How is that human, and how can humans be TRULY happy in that state without their faculties?
2. Even if you can explore the cosmos, be assigned task on earth, etc it all is boring when you account for the vastness of time. Say you get to explore the universe, how long can you explore different planets and different civilizations for? Maybe 10 billion years? What if you are conscious for 100 billion years. That would be 90 billion years of things that are already known. Thats equivalent to being human and going to Japan 1000 times. At some point you can only climb Mt. Fuji so many times until you know every square inch of it and find it routine and boring. Say you are assigned task on Earth as a guardian angel or something. At some point you are the guardian angel of so many people that you’ve seen the same situation thousands of times. And therefore it becomes boring for you to care about the problem your person is going through
Idk this is just my thoughts on the topic